ambivert?

last week or to be exact, on 26 July 2018, i went to KL with my mom to visit my sister who had already born to a super amazing little charm. yes a boy. i am super excited also but the bitter side is i need to spend a week there because my mom need to take care of my sister and the baby before we altogether could come back to kampung. it was so bored being there because i have to do nothing. literally nothing other than being at home and just play with the baby. but yeah here i am now, back in my lovely and comfort room(only for me), and yesterday we a had a little feast for the baby and all my parents friends were here and also my relatives. 

i dont like it.

well, it is not like i hate socializing with them because you know, hate is a very strong word right. i just do not like being in a crowd. especially with those people. the perks of being an ambivert? i actually havent figure out yet whether i am an introvert or ambivert? because it is doesnt like i have both personality traits, but sometimes i feel like i do. yes complicated.

it makes me feel sick being with a lot of people. i feel dizzy and sometimes i feel like i want to cry. silly me yeah.