i didnt go out from here for almost more than a week. since kakak went back to sepang. every night i tell myself i must go out tomorrow. but when the morning comes, i cant even get out from my bed. i feel so restless, weak, demotivated, useless, unworthy and all. i keep having those feelings every single day. this semester break, i should be doin something productive, jogging or at least go for a walk. i cannot go out w my friends because i have none. i am fine w that. before this i could just go out all alone, all by myself. but idk why this past few weeks i become so unenergetic. i dont feel like talking w my parents. i just wanna stay in my bedroom. sleep all day. why is this thing happening. to me. i got no one to talk to. every night, every at the end of the day, i really want to talk w somebody. to express this. but i cant. my friends are very busy handling their own life, why would i wanna make them think about unimportant stuff like this? i need a shoulder to cry on too. weh, this is seriously tiring. i couldnt express my feelings to anyone. sesak. there's too much on my mind. too much.
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